Remembrance

dedicated to my DAMN ex-wife . read the fine print dammit.

Remember when we held hands?
Remember when we scribbled on our arms?
Remember when we talked for hours?
Thats all it is now , remembrance.

Our memories now covered by dust,
Was it so worthless to you?
The flashbacks come again , fast,
I wanted to believe it was true.

I made the wrong choice then ,
Can't you let me make it right?
You keep pushing me further , damn ,
Aren't honest emotions in sight?


sorry.

Ageless Fate

As angels lead the lost souls home,
The dark angels sing their glory,
More souls descend than rise above,
Skies rain down their agony.

Farside we see the storm,
The clouds contain the sorrow,
Unappreciating where we're from,
None look forward to tomorrow.

The bloodstained sand kicked up by wind,
Meaningless,useless , tainted by sin,
Men are many a selfish fiend,
Harsh repulses , life will bring.

Facing the dawn , we see no fate,
Like an old photo, faded with age,
Things that time , cannot remake,
Not even the most skilled , experienced mage.

Fate entwines us like vines of a stalk,
Catching in line , every creature that walk(s),
The unlucky bunch , that freedom will mock,
Not having anyone , not a shoulder , or rock.

Love , Plain and Simple

Life is unpredictable,
It falls according to fate,
Feelings are undescribable,
When its too little, too late.

The want to be there,
The will to be together,
Life isn't always fair,
Not everything lasts forever.

If its meant to be,
It'll happen for sure,
Your heart'll be free,
You'll have your cure.

All that happens along the way,
Every single word you say,
Finds a place in your heart to stay,
You'll love more each passing day.

Inspiration is beautiful,
Especially from you,
You make dull things colourful,
You make dreams come true..

Chance Meeting

People say don't wait for him,
They say he's not worth my time,
Passion is a sordidly sweet crime,
I won't rest until he's mine.

He's a player, don't trust him!
You don't know him like I do,
Chances of happiness , are slim,
Without him , that'll be true.

Let me decide , its my choice to make,
He's the guy who makes my heart ache,
Hurt with feelings so great , NOT fake,
I'm already trapped , too late.

Long distances are too much for two,
A very common mistake,
He'll break your heart, you little fool,
This , love did not state.

True feelings come by only once,
I'm taking it with both hands,
It wasn't love at first glance,
But by first being friends.

Hang On

When things fall apart,
We hang on to that one reality,
Where shall I start,
As a person who treasures fidelity.

Perceptions are not always true,
Thought infecting my heart with you,
I'm stuck on you , so sue (me),
Love, give me a clue?

Though treasuring my roots,
I stand firm in pride,
My hearts got a truce,
As long you're mine.

You confuse me , I admit,
But willingly I forfeit,
Since you first said it,
I'll give you some credit.

Memories..

I ran my fingers over the pictures,
I pressed my hand to the walls,
The dust lay there thick in inches ,
My pent-up tears about to fall .

The music's stopped ,
But my feet still danced through the days,
My hopes started to drop,
The love never stays.

It can make you fall,
It can drive you wild,
It makes dreams seem tall,
Daydream and sigh.

Hold me close to your heart ,
And never let me go,
Why let me love you from the start,
And let me drop down so low?

For caring too much ,
I've paid a price ,
Lost memories ,pain to be touched,
I've lost at dice.

For my Friend

Here's a little something,
I owe to my friend,
A non-emo poem,
To show him that I can! =P

The warmth of the sun on skin,
How long since its last been?
A day or two , finally seen,
The vibrant , rainbow scene.

Even the dull days have colour,
When you are near,
Who else can it be?
Than my pajama wearing ' brother' ? xDD

Ha-ha! Told you I'd do it,
A more happy poem,
I finished it bit by bit,
But I got through, ahem!
Oh , word after every word,
But somehow after all,
This seems absurd.. =.=

I Love You =D

As tomorrow draws near,
I dream of those near and dear,
Soon , all of it becomes clear,
I love you.

Can a day go by,
Without you, I cry,
To be brave, I try,
Your killer charms , are sly.

There's always the time,
Especially of late,
I think of you, MINE!
You're the one to date.

All in the World,
Can't mean as much,
You're my golden pearl ,
I care , albeit too much.

Third Party

Three seconds after midnight,
My lover called to me,
He said that he was in-flight,
From here to Italy.

He said he went there to stay,
My thoughts in disarray ,
His cruel last words still play,
In my mind each passing day.

What about our love, I asked,
He said it wasn't true,
My pain and hurt , inside I masked,
When he said I won't miss you.

The little girl inside me hoped,
Hoped this was just a dream,
The man I love has just eloped,
I let out a piercing scream.

From that day on my new life starts,
I didn't do much, not me,
One day I got a little card,
From a girl in Italy.

'He is mine,' it read,
The card, I torn to shreds,
To my anger, revenge it fed,
'She will die,' my heart ,it said.

You Left..

You had left my life and home;
How could you leave my World so cold?
My imparted faith soon delight ,
When I saw you again that night,
Yet you were with another girl,
Broken and shattered,my honour , my World.

Takdir Cinta

Hidupku ini,
Bukannya bermakna,
Kalauku di sini,
Dan bukan dengan anda.

Tetapi segala usahaku,
Langsung tak berbuah,
Ku masih tanpa mu,
Cinta ini tak berpadah.

Tetaplah kita sebagai kawan,
Ku masih gembira,
Untuk hatimu ku berlawan,
Kepedihan hatiku tidak dikira.

Suaramu boleh lagi kudengar,
'Ku tak mencintaimu seperti cintamu terhadapku',
Matamu bagaikan batu damar, secantiknya,
Asal mu gembira, takdirku tak kukisah.

Goodbye Carino

Goodnight and sweet dreams you said,
Honey honey no, I have sour dreams,
Carino, do you know what you did?
You broke my heart, as it seems.

I am such a 'combarde',
So here's my goodbye,
To you, handsome 'hombre',
I won't again ,say goodnight.

Is farewell enough?
It's all the same,
To say it is tough,
So is to never see you again.

---------------------------------------------------

Carino means darling,
And combarde is coward,
Man equals to hombre,
Isn't this too straight-forward? =D

Love and Death

For every seconds' pass,
Her heart breaks slowly,
Had he betrayed her, as in the past?
Her heart screams in agony.

She was tearing from within,
Numb, she couldn't do a thing,
Only feel Death , dragging her in,
Almost hearing , the dark angels sing.

She didn't fight,
She just let go,
Had she a reason to do it?
For her reason was no more.

Death's peal of laughter , she heard ,
She thanked it, for ending all her pain and fear,
It was confused, what was wrong with her?
From Death's spot now, her lover reappeared.

Anger rose to her throat,
Such a bastard that man was,
He's top on her hit list,
To him, she wants to give Death's kiss...

Twist of Fate

Unexpressed hate,
Unshed tears,
All the twists of fate,
Every one of us fears.

No matter where we run,
We can't find a place to hide,
We've lost that special one,
The pain is kept inside.

Who was to believe,
Someone so simple was untrue,
The victim that was ; me ,
His choices gave no clue.

The reality was clear,
He was just a player,
Wasted are my tears,
I didn't have a prayer.

Bitter Heart

A heart so full of lead ,
A heart so hard and cold ,
Pain and sadness it is fed,
It is never to be whole.

The sweet memories we've once had,
They burn time and time again,
The bright fire that you once flared ,
Shall never be the same.

But what can I do?
I can't change your mind ,
I admit I'm a fool ,
Of a love that ain't mine.

But the answer's not stated,
Should time re-wind ,
Since the start we were not fated,
My heart it now resigns ..

-19.10.2009-

The Craziness In My Life Recently

How many crazy guys,
Are born into the World?
Craziness is but a mere disguise,
For the goodness of the soul that's inside.

Life goes into a spiraling whirlwind,
Lord knows when it shall stop,
A strong flame's now burning,
The temperature's not going to drop.

Soaring up high and down low,
Will this flame still burn and grow?
It builds very fast, but sometimes so slow,
But it increases at a steady flow.

I'm no good poetess,
What I write SOUNDS so untrue,
But the real thing that happened is,
You've caught my heart out of the blue!

Price to Pay

Pain strikes right to the heart,
Why does it always affect that part?
It was over, before we could even start,
Is this destiny's, unforgivable way to depart?

You hang on, even in pain and despair,
It was useless, we have but a minute to spare,
My heart is something I cannot repair,
Just remember all my tender loving care.

Seconds tick by, as the minute comes to a close,
Your last breath was taken, I froze,
Tears streams endlessly, is this love's goodbye?
Beside your lifeless corpse, my broken heart will lie.

All your pain , your suffering,
Ended in a bittersweet tone,
Though your heart's no longer beating,
I won't ever leave you alone.

I love you, I had no time to say,
Death is merciless, in almost every way,
I even awaited, our fated marriage day,
This is the price, love has forced me to pay..

Sorrowful Fate

A lady weeps nearby,
The young knight hears her cries,
He ran so fast, as if he could fly,
But he was too late, his love dies.

He held her in his strong embrace,
Her body lay cold, such a sorry phase,
He kept her away, so he could see her face,
His love for her was hidden, in a secret place.

How strong it was,
She did not see,
Till her life's last,
He let it be.

Hear his poor heart break,
Hear his sharp breath intake,
Watch as his whole life fades,
Upon such a sorrowful fate..

Untitled

My mind is a place,
Frozen in time,
Between nineteen eighty,
And two thousand nine.

I can feel each second pass,
Wondering if its near my last,
I wanted to travel the World with class,
I could have, but in the past.

Created by God,
But destroyed by what He created,
Isn't it sad,
Only two thousand nine since dated.

But I might not,
Live to say all,
To whom that's fond in thoughts,
To whom I once called.

When the day comes,
No one will know,
If everything goes,
When time just slows.

I want to live,
Till ripe old age,
Impossible to achieve,
Not without change.

Don't you want a family?
A place where all belongs,
When ends all humanity,
Who is it at wrong?

Us,
The carbon footprint is too large,
Thus,
We will one day be charged.

If we go on this way,
It will come only soon,
Unless we all have a say,
To end this boon;
Global Warming.

Unexplainable phenomena's,
Yes, its bound to worsen,
The end of this era;
Unforseen.

Lets save this planet,
You and I,
Together we can do it,
We just have to try..

GO GREEN!!

The Devil..

When your devil's web was spun,
I know from goodness, I shun,
But only you,cunning one,
Breaks young hearts,for fun.


But your song,
It tempts like no other,
Our life isn't long,
We don't look much farther.


What a silly mistake,
Making my own heart break,
Cause I knew from start, you're fake,
But you're the first one, to make my World shake.

I shouldn't have judged you,
By innocent looks,
Many hearts forget too,
They judged you,as they judge books.

But the fault's not yours,
It was my choice to make,
I can't get love by force,
I'm now awake,
Yet all's too late,
For I've loved what devils make.